Billys Beans

How many days do we feel drained, worthless, and insignificant? Many days I struggle with the thought of how insignificant I am. I feel purposeless and feel as though I don't measure up to what the world may expect me to be. I, for way to many years, was putting my identity into the things of this world. What I failed to realize many times over, is who I am. And I am in Christ. Now, we have all heard that we are a creation of God, and that we are made in his image. But I don't think we really take that to heart, I know I didn't. God, The Lord of this universe created the heavens and the Earth, the oceans, and the stars; and He created it perfectly. So perfectly that if the sun was just a few more feet away from the Earth, we would all freeze, and life would not be possible. His creation IS flawless.  And all of His creation is beautiful, just look around you! Its amazing. If he can create all that, I think He is highly capable of creating you and I, perfectly. God made yo...

"I never knew you." Imagine standing before The Lord, and the God whom you thought you had worshiped your entire life claims to have never known you. Is this possible? Yes, and Jesus even says it is probable. Jesus reminds us of this in Matthew 7:13, " Enter through the NARROW gate."  He then goes onto say " for WIDE is the gate that leads to destruction".  Not everyone who cries "Lord, Lord," will enter into the kingdom of heaven. (Matthew 7:21). These are, in reality, some of the most frightening words in the bible. We can go to church every Sunday, and yet we face the reality of  never being a true follower of Jesus. Let that sink in for a minute. It's frightening isn't it? Because in these bible verses, Jesus isn't talking to the atheists and nonbelievers, He's is talking to the good, religious people who associate themselves with Jesus and yet are shocked to find that Jesus claims to have never known them. Spiritual ...

You are loved more than you will ever know, by someone who died to know you. Through His death, He demonstrated His love for you. And when Christ died, He died for you individually. It was as if you were the only person in the world. He died, and He thought of you. He knew that through His blood, you would be redeemed from a world you could not survive on your own. Through His blood, every wrong you have ever and will ever do is wiped away; your sins taken as far as the East is from the West. He knew that through His blood you would find power and hope, and witness the greatest demonstration of love that man has ever seen. His love is enough. And there is nothing you could ever do to lose that love. His love is enough. He will protect you until you die, and even after death He will still protect you. So why are we still acting like He is not enough? He is stronger than depression, He is braver than loneliness, He is greater than your fears. He said to me, "My grace ...

How many times do we not do something, simply because of our fears? People say its part of our  “Human Nature” to have fears, and to some extent, that is true. But we weren't created to be fearful, to live in fear, or to have a fearful spirit. Timothy 1:7- “For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and of a sound mind.” Now try and argue that its apart of our nature. I'm not talking about the fear of spiders, or snakes or even heights; I'm talking about the fear that causes us to be held back from what God calls us to do. When we have a fearful spirit, that only shows us that we are lacking in faith. God tells us that if we ask anything in his name, he will answer our prayer!! Maybe it may not be right away, or in the way that we intended, but i can promise you that it will be much grander than what you had in mind. When we doubt God's love, power, grace and mercy, we join along side satan in questioning God's truthfulness,...

Have you ever just felt purposeless? Waste of air, waste of space, a waste of time? Every day, i go through the same routine as 49.8 million kids across The United States. I wake up, go to school, and try to stay awake through seven hours of lectures, only to return home with books stacked in my arms and chores to be done. We go through this for 12 years, until finally we graduate, and our whole lives are ahead of us. However, even then most of go off to college or a university, only to get a degree and end up in a career, and yes, even a cubical. But what i've realized, is that i don't want to do this. There is so much more to life than just the uniform things. Whats living if it consists of a daily routine of the same comforts? Where is the excitement? Wheres the joy and the thrill? What sets my life aside of the average Joe to encourage me to live a life filled with enthusiasm at every waking moment? Wheres the contentment of my day as the sun begins to set? Whe...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UTxW6oJ6OwY&feature=youtu.be  It was a late Friday night and i couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned with all these thoughts filling my mind until   suddenly i was inspired. I took parts from my Beauty blog post and wrote out what was on my mind. Next thing i knew it was 4am, but i was just so excited, and almost motivated by what i had wrote. I decided to film my family, friends and myself to make a video to go along with it. I hope you all enjoy it and you take something away from it.

Life can be such a funny thing. There have been plenty of days where it just seems like i'm dragging myself out of bed, cursing the horrific sound of my alarm ringing loudly in my ears. The sun harshly shines through my dirty glass windows before returning behind a cloud where i'm hoping it will remain. I just want to pull my covers back over my head, and stay in the darkness for just awhile longer. Then there are the days where i awake to the sweet sound of the birds singing, and the wind gently blows the branches of the trees to a calm swoosh. I'm awake, refreshed, and have a bounce to my step. I can conquer the world, and all that my day has to offer. It seems like nobody can stop me and my optimistic attitude.    Life, you're such a silly thing. Each day is new. Each day arrives with a set of new emotions, feelings, outlooks, and perception.   The past few weeks have been absolutely crazy, and just when i think things can't get any worse, they do. ...

We are constantly blinded to true beauty. We are blinded to the light, the good and what is real.  We  fall into darkness, feel alone, and feel that we can not measure up to what this world tells us we need to be. And we become scared. Scared that we wont fit in, or be accepted into this world. The true and valuable things in life are covered up by a society where outer beauty is more important than the things within, and this just seems to scratch the surface of within. But what we never ask ourselves, is why we would want to be accepted into this cold and dark place we call home. When in reality, beauty is so much more. Beauty is the freckles that someone wears across their cheeks, or the dimples unevenly placed when they smile. Its the the sun that peeks through the cracks in our windows every morning, and the people all around us that we don't seem take the time to get to  know. And we take all these things for granted. We have eyes, but we chose not to ...

You wake up on a warm morning, the sun's shining, the birds are chirping, and it looks like its going be a blissful day, right? Wrong. Waking up this Tuesday morning I felt like doing anything BUT  enjoying the sun, the breeze, and the birds. All I wanted to do was lay in bed. And I did exactly that until  I dragged my feet out of bed, and finally began to get ready, only to return to my bed 20 minutes later. I just couldn't do it. I KNOW i'm not the only one that has these days. And to me, that's somewhat comforting. I think that too often we look at everyone else and see the perfect life, they just seem to always have it together. However, behind their closed bedroom door there are tears, heartbreak and hurt. I guess what i'm trying to say is that we're not that different after all. “Barbie”, who sits two desks next to us in Chemistry and all the boys crowd her at every waking moment could be absolutely broken. I mean honestly, you really NEVER know...